Needs and Wants List

Believe it or not, this list took me a long time to write up. It also brought a lot of tears from some reason. Regardless, here is the list of my needs and wants for my life:

Needs

• Food
• Water
• Sleep
• Shelter
• Safety
• Graduate nursing school
• Some kind of job
• Clothes are good...
• Showers are nice...
• Cars are handy...
• I need to be okay with me, eventually

Wants

• Friends
• Happiness, even just a little bit eventually and every once in awhile
• Really great L&D or NICU job after graduation
• Move somewhere new
• Maybe become a traveling nurse in a couple years
• A quiet mind back
• Nightmares to chill out
• Family that's not batshit crazy
• Report the guys
• Forget all 3 of them, at least the pain they caused me
• Have hope for a future
• Have fun again
• Stop being scared every time someone knocks on the door, trucks, certain parts of town (because of the guys) and just about everything else in my life
• To be "okay"
• Stop having so many "Sad" days
• Stop feeling numb all the time, I want to be happy again
• Stop being so angry all the time
• Not feel so dirty, broken, shameful, unworthy, unlovable, unwanted, undesirable, rejected, and worthless
• Stop feeling crazy
• Stop feeling like I'll turn crazy
• Be able to laugh without feeling empty after

Yes, I know a couple of the wants are not realistic and are things that I cannot control. I get that. These are just the things that I had pop into my head.